I feel like a failure. I cannot stay away from food. During the day, I do just fine, but then at night I break down and pig out like a maniac. Why is it so easy for me to control myself during the day but so hard when I am home? Probably because during the day I am really busy and stuff and I have no time to really even think about eating. But at night I am just sitting here alone in my room and there is food downstairs and I feel lonely and bored and so I like to munch on food.

I will try again once more tomorrow. I have ruined my one month plan. Today was October 17, 2006 and the wedding is on November 17....hmmmmm maybe I will just not eat anything tomorrow to make up for it! Let's see if I can do that. In fact, I will just drink one slim fast and eat a banana for nutrients, and that is all I will have for the entire day. That will make up for the greasy chicken and potatoes and apple pie and chips and salsa that I had today. OKay I am back on the plan. Thank goodness for second chances