I'm not eating much nowadays during school. And it's not cuz I am on a diet...I have realized that it is very difficult for me to have will power when it comes to food...the reason why I don't eat nowadays during school is because I have decided not to spend any more money that I don't have. And so now I am starving to death during school. I bring a few things from the fridge at home, but I am at school for about 12 hours a day and usually I eat everything that I bring from home by 5pm at latest. This will probably cause me to lose weight...but then again when I get home late at night I usually pig out due to starvation during the day.

I was going to run two miles last night but after the fight with my dad I could not bring myself up to run. I felt very mentally anguished and I still feel slightly mentally anguished right now.

I am thinking about all of the other kids around me who are able to keep their own money and are able to go out and do what they want to do with their lives. Their parents don't sit around and yell at them as if they were 10 year olds.