I have decided that I'm going to remain fat until I meet the right guy, who will accept me for my fatness and just love me for who I am, not how I look. Once we are together, then I will work out like a maniac and become super thin and athletic and gorgeous. Hopefully this won't cause him to feel intimidated and leave, because I have heard of this happening before with men who were with fat women who later became thin (saw it on oprah i believe). But if it does, that will be fine because by then I will be thin and then my options will be greater than before. So that is my plan.

Panda i hope you continue to get help from the counselor. depression is such a horrible thing.

anyways i don't know if i am just using the above as an excuse to stay fat and continue eating good food. maybe i will just wake up one day and decide to be athletic again like i was when i was in high school. today i woke up and as i was walking through the crisp breezy air with a hint of winter in it, the memories of the good ol' days came flooding back of when i used to be a runner and would run in the cool autumn air for miles at a time. i breathed in deeply and felt really excited as i recalled those good ol' days.

i love good memories so much

i am becoming a real expert at HPLC. i have done so many injections this week.